But this last litter... this last litter is determined to not only break my heart, but to stomp it into little tiny pieces.
On Monday, after being sick with diarrhea for several days (even with the prescription medication) Amelia, named after Amelia Earhart, died. Her intestines had telescoped inside of themselves, and there was no cure. Nothing could be done.
The very next day, her sister, Nellie, got very sick. She had a 106 degree fever, and was hospitalized at the shelter's clinic for four days. She rallied, came back home with me, then got worse again on Monday... this time, the site where she received sub-q fluids swelled up to nearly the size of a golf-ball, and she couldn't use her front legs as a result. She was literally trembling in pain... BUT she rallied yet again after a change in antibiotics, and we thought that was the end of it.
But today was by far the worst. The entire litter was retested for FeLV, and even though they originally tested negative, today they tested positive.
And I am so at a loss.
The shelter cannot adopt them out to a normal household. I can't keep them indefinitely - I have my own cats to think of. The vets are fairly certain that the very limited contact that my cats have had with these babies has not infected them, but we can't take chances with prolonged contact, and we can't keep them in quarantine indefinitely - that's no way for a cat to live. The reality is that these babies have nowhere to go.
They are sweet, innocent little kittens, and it is not their fault that they have a disease. They are face-kissers, nose nuzzlers. They are perfect lap-cat material and have no fear of humans, dogs, other cats. They should have been some of the most adoptable kittens available.
Does anyone know of someone who already has an FeLV positive cat that might want a kitten? Multiple kittens? A sanctuary that wants a three-pack of adorable kittens? We're in Western Pennsylvania, if that makes a difference or helps. I don't have the authority to place these kittens - they're fosters, not mine, but the shelter is willing to attempt to place them if a suitable situation is found.